Saturday, January 22, 2011

And the dream begins...again

The last month has been fantastic. My original goal from mid December to now was to try & stop binge eating & get back to consistent triathlon training. In the last month I've lost 12 pounds & haven't missed a workout! Even better than I had hoped!

I'm now at 222 pounds, & determined to get back to the fitness levels I was this past summer & get back to my dream weight of 185.... again. I was 184 in July 2010, & then my mother got back in contact with me after 14 months of peace, to trauma, no stress, & no communication at all. Having contact with her caused a colossal back slide of missed workouts & mind blowing emotional binge eating. I gained 50 pounds in 2 months. But I'm back on course & I'm on a roll! I've set a goal of hitting my dream weight of 185 by June 3rd, which will be a weight loss of 37 pounds in 4.5 months. That's an average of 1.85 pounds of weight loss a week. Not crazy. Doable.

I've got on a roll like this a few times before. After months & months (seemed like forever!) of eating healthy, following a food plan, logging my calories, working out hard, & being just a little bit hungry everyday I'd finally got to my goal weight. The problem with me is maintaining my weight. I've never once in my life been able to maintain. I'm either gaining weight fast or losing it slowly, never staying the same! I'm hoping with my revitalized relationship with Jesus, & my work in the OA 12 & 12 I'll get to my dream weight & maintain it for the first time. If I could get to & maintain my dream weight of 185 until November when I compete in Ironman Arizona I'd be 52 pounds lighter than when I set my Ironman personal best time of 14 hours 37 minutes. At 52 pounds lighter I'd CRUSH my old PR! So now I start my quest & dream of being triathlete thin & shoot for Iron glory once again. I'll keep you updated on how I do. Thanks for your support.

3 comments:

  1. It was good to read about you being in such a good place and to have goals. I have been feeling feelings-fear and feeling overwhelmed at working the 12 steps-reaching out on phone, getting a sponsor. I have about 40 lbs to lose to be at my goal wt which would be 180-190 ish (still overwt for 5'2 but my highest was 345 and I can't remember when I was 180? age 15?) I sometimes feel and worry that being in the wt loss challenge I;m in and trying to follow 1200-1300 cal a day goes against OA. But the reality is I don't lose wt unless I'm doing that amt of calories and a good 4-5 hrs exercise a week. But if I make good food choices I'm not really hungry. I don't always want to eat at the level of 1200-1300 cal as this does require close planning/measuring/truly following a diet mentality. But I'm willing to do it for the short term to finally lose the wt . sometimes it works hand in hand with a plan of abstinance and sometimes it makes my inner kid rebel and wanna eat whatever. I'm definitely in the step 2-3 range and doing bette rthis weekend than last. My goal is for a walk run 5k in april but I just got diagnosed with arthritis in my foot , so may be more walk than run....well, thanks for letting me share:}. any thoughts?

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  2. Keep up the great work and good luck with training.

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  3. That is so awesome!!!
    I'd love to hear about how you train for something like Ironman! Holy cow I can't even fatham! And you've already done it before - how cool is that?! I think this is your year my friend - embrace it! You can do it!

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