Monday, March 19, 2012


Last night I fell of the wagon. My destructive overeating has continued all day today. I had 460 days of abstinence, and now I have to start over. I keep trying to stop binge eating by sheer force of will. No matter how hard I try I cant get back to sane eating, and I keep eating, and eating, and eating.... Finally my wife sat me down for a heart to heart. She took my hands into hers and she prayed to help me give my struggles over to God. Then she reminded me to not worry about how many days of abstinence I lost and reminded me to just worry about today. Not to worry about tomorrow, just today. Then she told me to stop beating myself up. To be gentle with myself. And that's when I started to heal again and trust in my Lord Jesus Christ.

In the morning I'll be starting from day 1 again, and I couldn't be happier.

Thank God for my wife and Gods grace.


  1. Perhaps not counting? You may be putting too much pressure on yourself by thinking about the number of days, which keeps you from focusing on "Just for today". Just a thought. Good luck.

  2. you are an inspiration! i am on day one again too! a day is what we need to work on at a time. hugs to you!