Tuesday, November 3, 2009

will there be an end to this anytime soon?

Well, the last 3 weeks has been disastrous. I've binge ate all but 3 days in the last 3 weeks. I've put on another 6 pounds. I'm watching the 35 pounds I lost mid triathlon season jump back on me with a vengeance. Usually there has to be some kind of major stress in my life to cause overeating like this. There's no stress like that in my life right now-other than my overeating & weight gain. My family is happy & we are all content. My wife is worried about me downing food like this, but we are all happy.

My triathlon training is doing great (other than the obvious negatives of my weight gain), I'm not missing any bikes or runs & my swimming is maintaining at average.

The 4 days I didn't overeat in the last 3 weeks was after my first Over eater Anonymous meeting. I got a lot of motivation & encouragement from that meeting. I've only talked to a couple of people about my compulsive eating before, so being around others who have the same issues with food as I do made me feel a bit more normal. Someone spoke at the meeting who hadn't binged for 19 years. That was encouraging. I never really believed I could eat like a normal person before. I'm not right now, not unless you consider one person eating enough calories to make 3 people gain weight. But hearing them say "with the right tools & support it is possible" felt GREAT to hear.

I realize this overeating and weight gain has essentially driven away all my hopes of going sub 5.5 hours in a half Iron in 2010, which was my 2010 goal. I was so very close. I finished one this year in 5hrs 30 minutes. Now that I'm packing the weight on again I'm changing my goal for 2010 to being a sprint distance triathlete. The extra weight doesn't effect a sprint distance athlete nearly as much. The longer the race, the more extra fat slows an athlete.

So, I guess I'm going to start going to more OA (over eaters anonymous) meetings. Perhaps with the support & knowledge they are able to give me I can start trying to control my eating rather than my eating controlling me.

Thank for tuning in. Feel free to comment or leave questions if you have any.


  1. Hey! Looks like we have a lot to talk about and share! I'm working tons of OT these net two weeks but I will try to get back with you as soon as I can!

  2. Wow! Great honesty and I like your fighting spirit. Keep at it...I'll be following your progress.

    Big Clyde