Sunday, January 10, 2010

the start of success

Things have been great since I started OA on the 6th. Since then not only have I abstained from destructive eating, but my whole focus & goals have changed. My focus before had been purely worldly. I wanted to be thin, look good, & be triathlon fast. Now I realize I need to focus on abstaining from destructive eating behaviors. Before that was an impossible goal. Now I know I can accomplish abstinence by turning to God for strength, going to OA meeting, service (helping others with food issues), following a food plan daily, & using a sponsor. on the 7th I earned a 24 hour coin. I'm looking foreword to earning my 1 week coin on the Wed!

My training is going great! I have been focusing on getting my fitness base back. Once I've rebuilt a good base, I'll start to pick up the speed work again.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

my 2nd OA meeting

Well, after another period of binging I realized I can't control my eating on my own. I went to my 2nd overeaters anonymous meeting this morning. My first one was months ago. I got my desire coin. I have realized I can't do it with my own self power. I need OA, the support of others like me, and God. This is exciting & scary all at the same time.

There were people in the meeting who had been abstinence of binging for decades. For the first time I think there's hope! I'll keep you tuned in.